2:00 In The Morning Lessons About God

So I was awake at 2:00 the other morning listening to my little girl cry.  I will admit it was confusing because–well, she had just been well fed, burped (you should hear what can come out of her), I had changed her diaper (where she once again pee’d on me) and then she had been put down in her bed.

BUT…after about five minutes she began to cry a little, then it was a lot.  I laid in bed thinking, “Why is she crying…everything in her world is ok.”

BUT…something wasn’t–even though she had been fully taken care of by Lucretia and I–even though she had been fed–even though she, right now, is blessed in ways that she cannot see or comprehend–she still saw a reason to cry.

So what did I do?  To be honest–I just laid there and listened to her cry for several minutes.  I knew she was ok–I knew she was crying because of either discomfort or frustration–neither of which were motivating reasons to get me to move on her behalf–even though I love her more than any other person on the planet (other than ‘Cretia!)  :-)

AND then I had this thought, “How many times have I done the same thing to God?  How many times have I cried and complained to him because of either discomfort or frustration…and never stopped to fully realize how completely blessed that I am?”

I think we all do that to God at one time or another–we cry and complain because…

• We are single and time is ticking
• We didn’t get the promotion
• Someone else has a nicer car than ours
• We get sick at an “inconvenient” time

I could go on and on.  AND–at the time we are crying we get angry and frustrated at God because He doesn’t move.  We ask why…and we are confused.

So why doesn’t God move–because He knows we are alright!  If I thought, for one second, that something was wrong with Charisse–I would do everything I could to make it right.  I think that is the way it is with the Lord–when He knows something is wrong–He will act–but when we merely cry out of discomfort and frustration then usually He will not “come to the rescue” because the reasons for discomfort and frustration are selfish.

God knows when I am in need–and He knows when my cries are motivated by my selfishness…and I am learning more and more that I have to trust that, if I need it, He will provide it…and if I don’t need it, but I think I do–yet He still doesn’t seem to act–I need to shut up and focus on what He HAS blessed me with and how good i really do have it.

Those were just my thoughts at 2:00 in the morning–I hope they made sense.